Chapter 17 - The Question I Couldn't Escape

The flight receipt came through Ray's preserved correspondence. Mom had asked him to assemble a "travel readiness" folder, and she'd included an airline confirmation that listed one adult and one infant. It wasn't proof she could board with Elsie. It was proof she'd planned to try.
I gave the investigator the requested records, then helped Mara bathe Elsie. The hearing could wait an hour. Our daughter couldn't.
At the protection hearing, Mom sat across the aisle in a navy jacket, her hands clasped like she was attending church. Her attorney questioned the police report and the seven-second clip. Sofia presented the injury documentation, messages, and material showing the context of the edited footage. Dana explained exactly what she had and had not witnessed on the paperwork.
Mom kept shaking her head. When asked why she had kept a camera hidden in the nursery clock, she said she feared for the baby. When asked why the thirty-seven-minute video showed her locking Mara out, she said she'd been creating a quiet environment. Even the judge looked tired of the changing answers.
Then I was asked to explain when I'd first understood that Mara was afraid of my mother.
I could have said the day I opened the nursery door. I could have described only what I'd seen with my own eyes. Instead I told the truth.
"She asked me for help before that," I said. "I dismissed her. I thought if my mother said she was fine, she must be fine. I was wrong."
Across the room Mara looked down at her hands. I didn't say it so she'd forgive me. I said it because our daughter would one day ask what kind of man her father had been, and I wanted the record to contain something honest.
The court issued temporary protective restrictions while the matters proceeded and explained the no-contact terms. Our attorney warned us that additional proceedings could still follow. No order could erase what had happened, but it gave us room to breathe.
As we stood to leave, Mom whispered my name.
"Adam, you can't do this to your own mother."
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For once, I didn't turn around.
In the hallway, Mara touched my shoulder. "There's something I have to decide," she said. "And you don't get to decide it for me."